You all write to many Journals...
I have been gone way too long, and have realized I have missed far too much... a year went by fast. and I was here and there, but really gone... my heart was just lost and not at all in it... I've been going through a 3 year long custody battle, and still am. After a year I began to feel hopeless... I never gave up, but my mind wanted to. Constant mind games... I was completely unable to feel real with all the mind fucking going on... and it's still going on.

well I have had thousands (and that's no exaggeration) of messages and today, came to the conclusion that, there was no way in hell I was going to read them all. So I was determined to refresh my DA. and so I begain to delete them... and as they went by... I read all the titles and could tell I've missed you all. the were happy, they were sad, there was so many I wish I was there for...
and now I am tired and am still not finished deleting them.

As for the deviations... I have been looking them over one by one... and those I will be taking the time, no matter how long it takes.